SEPI katenyer

"Bisik ku pada bulan

Kembalikan temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku..

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku..

Sepi memelukku..

Bulan jangan biar siang..

Biar malam ini kelam..

Biar ia sepi sepertiku......."



Sajak : hebat

Latar belakang penceritaan : Bagus

Lagu2 tema dan lagu scene : Tepat

But still.....i cant feel the real emotion of SEPI itself when watching it. hahaha am i sengal? maybe, but, mmg tak rase SEPI, sebab didominasi dgn happy ending lebih dari sad ending or SEPI per say..tak kisah laa..just a comment ok...takde ape pun..maybe i expect too much for this film.. :)



tgk filem2 mcm ni tiba2 buat diri rase mcm terbawa2 pada mcm2 "scene" dlm hidup aku sendiri...byk sgt, mcm album berkembar dah gamaknyer aku rase kalau nak selak..hahaha bahagi2 kan hidup aku pada beberape peringkat and pecahan (dah mcm cikgu sains & matematik) setiap satu ade kisah2 yg tersendiri...



Sedih dan kegagalan mendominasi sebahagian dr hidup aku, namun gagal utk ramai org2 yg rapat dgn aku sedar perkara ni...i am a good pretender by the way..tapi..sgt2 percaya every storms will end up with rainbows....here i am now..bgn dari semua kisah2 kegagalan... :) for u guys out there yg same jugak mcm aku..good luck to u guys...Allah will always be with us..through better or worse, insyaallah..all we need is to believed.



Actually today, 29th Sept,2009..sgt byk benda yg aku tahu..sgt byk yg aku mule sedar..dan aku sgt bersyukur, He heard me...masa aku terjatuh dulu.. :) mcm2 aku doa, mcm2 aku harap...dan selepas tu..nothing happened..but still...aku tetap doa lagi...dan harap lagi....dan akhirnya sampai hari yg aku tggu2, dan sampai masa yg aku nanti2 kan... tapi tak tau nak senyum / happy / ape... sengal laa aku ni.. patutnya aku senyum lebar....kalau boleh party2 ke..hahaha tapi tak.. kenape yeh?



takpe laa..lupe kan...yg penting hidup aku ni..bukan hidup org, SEPI aku dah berlalu...kisah2 lama...dah habis, kisah2 yg pahit dah aku telan..dah pun buang dlm toilet pun (kalau telan kene buang,jgn jadikan darah daging), yg manis aku telan dan simpan...hehehe...



well korang2, as usual sorry laa korang terbace entry aku kali ni yg merepek ni..takde ape nak cite pun selain aku terase cite SEPI tak cukup SEPI, dan aku teringat cerita2 lama...about my life,love,friendship...and many more.. :)



Masih lagi berdoa yg terbaik buat mereka yg pernah ade dlm diari2 hidup aku, as so called family, bfs (haha), kawan biase, kawan baik, org2 yg selalu ade masa aku susah dah senang zaman dulu2, zaman belajar kat KTIM (Bum and budak2 umah jugak memeber lain), dungun(tak perlu sebut dah..plus mamat and zepah gedik), melaka, sekarang...dan sebagainya...we are just not perfect to expect perfection of others in life..and thats why what has happened was happened..kan? :) take it as life lesson learned...and may we have a better one in future, insyaallah..



To my all my family : never failed to stand beside me..no matter what..all of you are my soul...

To my Fiancee : Allah give me just 1 life to live in...and it is u...you are my life..

To my Bffs : accepting my imperfection and never let me walk with sorrow..all of you are my heart..

and the rest, yg same2 have dropped your signiture in my "diary" tak kisah laa dengan warna ape korang sain, hitam,merah,rainbow or anything...thank you so much.. :)

"whatever you give to life, it gives you back..
Do not hate anybody..
The hatred, which comes out from you, will someday comeback to you..
Love others, and love will comeback to you.."

Aku sekarang adelah aku...disebab kan ape yg berlaku...

Selamat malam..

Al kisah Si Keli

Hehe..lawak je aku rase nak tulis post this time..kenape? sebab al kesahnyer after balik dari melaka, aku tulis post Eid 2009 tu, khamis mlm, 1 hari selepas sampai umah Klang, aku balik balik melaka..hahahaha

Semuanya pasal aku rase bosan duduk kat Klang, so aku ajak En.Azuan balik kg. Kebetulan sgt my fav Aunty dtg Klang, khamis malam die nak balik melaka..kami ikut laaa....En.Azuan drive mereta my aunty..sampai melaka takde benda nak buat jugak..tapi best laa balik kg dgn En.Azuan....nanti aku cite ape aku buat..

Jumaat tu, Opah tanye, nak makan ape lunch nanti, Aunty aku takde, tgl opah, aku and En.Azuan aje kat umah tu...aku jawab pape laaa...tetibe tgk2 opah tgh menyangkung...die tengah tangkap ikan kat dalam akuarium..ikan keli...hati aku berbunga2 riang...ikan fav aku tu...tau2 je Opah ni..

Tgk2 opah tertonggeng2 tu...aku rase lagi baik aku suh En.Azuan yg tertonggeng2..wakakkakaka jdnyer..aku suruh laa En.Azuan amik alih tugas opah menagkap ikan keli tu...Die pun dgn sgt berlagaknyer berkata : "ikan laut pun aku leh tangkap ini plak ikan dlm kolam..cehs" sebenarnye aku bengang dgr ayat terbabit...aku diamkan aje laaa..tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu..lama benoo die tangakp ikan akuarium..ngalahkan tangkap ikan laut..tula, berlagak lagi..bile aku komplen die cakap.."licinlah" pastu.. "eh,terlepas laaa tadi dah dapat dah..." adeh laaa..mcm2...

last2 dapat laaa 4 ekor..terus opah suruh plak kasi ikan keli tu pening..sebab opah nak siang...korang tgk laaa video yg aku letak kat bawah post ni nanti cemane buat ikan keli pening, versi En.Azuan...lepas ikan keli dah pening, opah plak siang ikan keli, pastu die amik daun pisang,ramas2 dgn ikan keli yg dah bersih tu..tujuannye nak buang licin2 die..tak kasi die berlendir...oooo itu petuanya..hehehehe

Ikan keli tu opah masakkan spesel utk aku makan...opah tak makan ikan keli..aku balik ni die masak kan...hehehe ikan keli sambal..sile rujuk gambo yeh..sgt sodap...itu lah cerita ikan keli kali ni...pasni nak kena buat post lain..pasal aktiviti mlm aku di melaka Jumaat tu..hehehhe.. selamat membace...

What Happened in My Eid 2009

Today is our 4th Syawal and i'm at home..Havent realise how fast Ramadhan has left us, now Syawal bringing almost the same feeling...Raya ke 4 dah..Wanna know how my Eid been celebrated? Keep on reading ya.. :)

Day 1, 19th Sept,2009.

Heading to Malacca at 630pm from Port Klang, i've checked from my Google Map, it takes 1hour 47mins for 147km form my house to Alor Gajah..however, due to fake info from PLUS, they said E1,Seremban - Malacca is having real bad traffic at that time, so we decided to use jalan Banting. Patut tak sampai 2 jam dah boleh sampai melaka, we took almost 3 hours nak sampai Alor Gajah. dah laa puase. Padahal bukan jem pun hiway tu...cehs..Chik's family dah prepare nak start BBQ dah when we arrived. So, apelagi, i took charge of it..bakar3.....halfway bakar, hujan..hahahahaha then family Pakde plak sampai...cont our BBQ sampai semua kenyang.. :) After that, kak long and i helped my aunty buat ketupat, isi ketupat..and i end up sleeping cepat mlm raya tu...penat beb..huhu

Day 2, 20th Sept, 2009.

Woke up at 8am (mmg lambat), get ready for my 1st day raya...yey~ waited for pakcik2,cuzzin2 lelaki, semua balik dr sembahyang raya, makan2 and bermula lah sesi minta2 maaf dan duit raya..sob2...abeh duit den....ekekkekeke but its fun coz they have to ciom my hand and mintak maaf as if dorang mmg byk buat dosa to me...hahaahhaha...hope all of you happy lah ye dapat duit raya ye kanak2...jgn byk komplen...ekonomi meleset...huhuhuhu..

After took pics together and have fun kat rumah Chik, my family off to Segamat. Raya kg ayah pulak..starting with Pak Anjang kat Jasin, melaka, umah Kg.Gubah, rumah Pak Lang, rumah PakLong kat Pogoh and PakSu kat Pogoh jugak..pergh....penat...then we back to Melaka, arrived at midnite terus je ZzzzZzzz...

Day 3, 21st Sept, 2009

Pakcu dtg dr KL, so lengkaplah family Hj.Osman (please exclude my Pak Long) hahaha..Pakde and family went to Tok Midi house in Tampin, my family and i lepak at home, tgk TV aje..and of cos, makan, makan, makan, sampai nak terburai perut. TETAP..makan jugak..hahaha At night, Pakde buka kelas belajar menganyam ketupat jantung, i dunno it is hard to make it, i tot senang aje anyam ketupat ni, rupenye, sgt susah yeh..but, i've made it...yeah!! tgk tgn laa..hahahah but dunno if tahun depan i still can remember how to make it..ekekkekeke. Then,we went to Muara Ikan Bakar, Umbai. Makan ikan bakar, paksu belanje yey~~ all 16 of us, exclude chik's family, ayah and ameer. So, what have we ordered that night?

1. 3 siakap 3 rasa


2. 1 pari bakar


3. 4 pinggan sotong goreng tepung


4. 4 pinggan butter prawn
   15 nasi lemak


5. 30 otak2


6. 7 jug air (laici,tembikai,oren,limau,air suam)

Hahahaha...we end up full and feel like bloated plak dlm kete...giler ah...Thank you Pakcu..hehe

Day 4, 22nd Sept, 2009.

I had a nightmare that night before Maklat woke me up at 9am...Fuh,seb baik..actually i havent yet go to my grandfather's kubur since 1st raya. So, nak la pegi hari ni, with Pakde. Maklat kejut kate pakde dah siap pakai songkok dah, aku je tak bgn lg, beriye laa aku bgn cepat gile mandi, tgk2...pakde tengah "berenang" lgi atas katil..cehs..tunggu punya tunggu sampai kul 11am baru g kubur arwah atuk..It's been 2 years i havent visit arwah atuk, but i always keep him close to my heart.. :( this year, aku bersihkan kubur, and tgk2 keliling kubur, lama tak dtg..rindu pulak.. i know all of us miss him so much...as much as those memories he left us with..knowing him for 18 years is such a short time but still, great memories..enough talking bout him, will make me cry plak kejap lagi.. :) for you atuk...Al-Fatihah..Balik dr kubur, lepak2, and balik Klang...arrived at 630pm mcm tu...terus je..tido... hehehe

Today 23rd Sept, 2009, i have nothing to do at home. Just waiting for my fiancee balik dari kg and will visit my Pakcu kat Keramat tonight. Then no plan for tomorrow and day after,except if my BFF dah balik, nak jalan raya rumah dorang..other than them....mungkin i have to plan 1st..hahaha

To all of you, my readers, wish you selamat hari raya, minta maaf zahir dan batin, halal kan makan dan minum yg nampak atau tidak, yg sedar atau tidak...dan kat sini juga, aku maafkan segalanya, sesiapa pun, dosa yg aku tahu atau tidak...yg nampak atau tidak, semua aku maafkan dan halal kan...luv u guys...always..Mmmuuaahhss..

To my Fiancee, Selamat Hari Raya, sorry for everything, i love u more every single day..no matter what may come our way..insyaallah..

::Fitting my Wedding Dress::

Hampir terlupa nak update baju yg aku try kat D Ratu, last week. Actually i found this dress in the internet and fall in luv with it..since it is not so expensive to rent, i decided to give it a try and.... korang tgk laa..cantik ke tak..hehe :)

Komen yg bernas adalah much appriciated :). Both of us agreed on this dress but tak agree dgn baju lelaki..so..baju lelaki nak kena buat yg baru...so far, mmg top list lah baju ni..gonna pay for downpayment soon kalau takde sebarang komen yg negatif..yey~~

Ini Seriyesss!!

Pada yg tak nampak, YM di atas adalah antara aku dan EnAzuan. Mungkin ramai yg tau, hobi unggul dan utama dia, iaitu, MEMANCING.. pantang nampak air sikit, lopak sikit, longkang pun jd lah..mule lah die tersengih2 pandang aku..dan selaku tunang yg sgt mementing kan keselamatan dan jugak sgt tidak suke perkara2 LAGHA, aku akan bula kerutkan dahi aku, cekak pinggang, dan muncung sikit sambil berkata "ah, takde3!!jgn nak tersengih2!!"..

Ni adelah perbualan aku dgn En.Azuan pasal mancing tersebut kat YM tu... :
Aini Azuan: abg..BUZZ!!!
Aini Azuan: ade ke tak nih..
Aini Azuan: biar laa takde pun...
Aini Azuan: b nak cakap jugak..
Aini Azuan: td b dapat sms dr izhar
Aini Azuan: die tanya siape staff nama Azhar,staff penang..
Aini Azuan: so b tanya kenapa..
Aini Azuan: die kata, dia dpt sms staff tu jatuh kat laut..kat kedah...
Aini Azuan: tak timbul sampai sekarang
Aini Azuan: b bg laa details, umur 24,join ibil bulan 5 rtu
Aini Azuan: so..b tanya cemane leh jatuh kat laut..
Aini Azuan: jawapannyer...g MANCING..bot terbalik..
Aini Azuan: jadi..
Aini Azuan: kesimpulannyer kat sini...
Aini Azuan: ANDA DIHARAMKAN MEMANCING SEUMUR HIDUP..SAMA ADA DILAUT, DISUNGAI, DI TASEK ATAU DIMANA2 JE YG ADE TAKUNGAN AIR SEKALIPUN...SEUMUR HIDUP...
Aini Azuan: HARAP MAKLUM!
Aini Azuan: SEKIAN!
Aini Azuan: oh lagi satu..
Aini Azuan: KEPUTUSAN PENGADIL ADALAH MUKTAMAD,SEBARANG SURAT MENYURAT TIDAK AKAN DILAYAN!
TuNang: alaa..kalo dah nk meninggal tu tgh dok dpn laptop pun bole mati yang
Aini Azuan: AH!!
TuNang: ishkk..tu dah mmg takdir dia mati kat laut la
Aini Azuan: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
TuNang: abg kalo gi pun abg pakai life jaket la sayg
Aini Azuan: takde2
TuNang: ishkkk
Aini Azuan: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Aini Azuan: takde3~
TuNang: alaaaaaaa
Aini Azuan: dah kate dah..
Aini Azuan: sebarang surat menyrat
Aini Azuan: sebarang alasan
Aini Azuan: rayuan
TuNang: sms bole?
Aini Azuan: takkan dilayan
TuNang: emel ke
TuNang: hehehe
Aini Azuan: sms pun tak bole!!! haih!!
Aini Azuan: email pun tak!! org kate takleh2 takleh lah..melebih dr pengadil ko nih!!
TuNang: ala..kedekut la
Aini Azuan: kedekut mak kut...
Aini Azuan: tak kire
TuNang: xpe..nnti pegi senyap2 je xnak bgtau
TuNang: hehehe
Aini Azuan: ooooo cube laa buat...ko cube dulu
TuNang: hehehe..xnak aa
TuNang: x berani
TuNang: huhuhuhu
Aini Azuan: hah...tau takpe...
Aini Azuan: kalau nak manceng..nanti aku belikan ko akuarium kecik...saiz S..aku letak ikan emas..
Aini Azuan: ko mancen depan tb..
Aini Azuan: sudah!
Aini Azuan: syarat dah pun di longgarkan...jgn nak mintak lebih2...
TuNang: uihhh
TuNang: alaaaaaaa
TuNang: tu pakai panceng mainan tu bole la
Aini Azuan: naseb aarr..lalalala~
Aini Azuan: takpun aku belikan mancen permainan yg utk budak2..yg magnet tu...ikan bukak mulut ko panceng...
Aini Azuan: senang
Aini Azuan: tak laa bsah lantai umah..

hah, tu laa ceritanya, dan actually panjang lagi YM tu..malas aku nak paste, mmg betul, ajal maut ditgn tuhan, malapetaka ni kie tak pernah tau pun bile die nak sampai pada kita, tapi ape yg boleh kita elak..kita elak laaa tak? k laaa..aku nak mandi...pada semua kaki pancing, HANDLE WITH CARE!!

p/s: En.Azuan, sila bungkus semua perkakas2 memncing anda, saye nak buat sedekah amal jariah dibulan Ramadhan ni kepada anak2 yatim.

Sekian.

Today's activities

Date : 4th Sept,2009

Time : 1337

Venue : Ofis laa..aku keje tau =P

Mood : Blur, sebab keje byk..

Aku kena relax..sebab dr td asek laa hadap report. Mata sakit..rase tekak mcm nak muntah. Puase2 ni, takleh nak beriye sgt hadap laptop, rase haus plak karang (ape kena mengena laptop dgn rase haus? ekeke)....

So, i am planning for my today's activities. Usually people plan a day before, but i plan on the day i wish to do whatever i wanted to..hahaha

0500 : Bangun sahur (woke by my Fiancee)

0630 : Get ready to work

0715 : In his car oready...(sorry tggu lama..tertido balik laaa..huhu )

0845 : Sampai ofis (entah kenape semua tempat nak jem today, sengal lah!! hangen je aku pg td)

0900 : Doin ofis work + fbing + chatting + blogging + surfing internet

1630 : Patutnya time ni aku balik, but kena stay for buka puasa :(

1900 : Turun buka puasa with my big boss at Zakuro.. (my fav restaurant..Unagi..i'm coming)

2000 : Heading to D Ratu Bridal House, utk fitting baju :) with my Fiancee

2100 : Appointment with D Ratu Bridal house :)

2300 : Watch movie at KLCC, FINAL DESTINATION 4.. yey~~

0100 : Balik dan tido.. :) ZzZzZzzZZzz

jadi, itulah jadual hari ni...bosan giler sekarang...lambat betul masa ni nak gerak...cehs...dah laa lapar ni....bosan plak..

korang buat ape je hari ni??

p/s : thinking of dgn siapa En.Azuan nak berbuka hari ni..sebab die mmg bukak puase dgn saye je selama ni...ermmm...

Angan2 yg takde penyudahan.. =P

Date : 2nd Sept,2009
Time : 0958
Venue : Opis, lantak laaa... =P
Mood : Berangan sgt! ahaks..

Aktiviti berangan ni perkara biase laaa utk aku. Sebab berangan a.k.a planning ni mmg wajib utk org mcm aku yg ade terlalu byk benda at the corner.. hehe tgk blog Cida semalam buat aku rase nak jugak share angan2 aku cam Cida yg Ratu Berangan itew~~ hahaha ni kisah nak kahwin laa ni, sebab dah dekat dah. Org2 yg rapat maybe dah tahu dah date yg dah aku pilih...pada yg tak tau tu..pasal korang tak rapat laaaa...wakakakakak ape lagi...lagi maw tanya! huhuhuu nanti aku akan buat entry ::Bride To Be:: yg sarat dgn segala preparation utk my wedding :) nantikan ye kamu2! hehe

Aku suke majlis yg simple dan tak membazir, walaupun terasa trend "garden wedding" klise, tapi mmg tak dinafikan tema ni sgt lah cantik dan seswai utk tahun tahun ni.. Fresh flower mmg takkan lapuk laaaa, warna white pearl, off white, baby pink, lite purple, warna rumput / daun2 mmg sejuk sgt mata memandang... jd.. angan2 aku jd camni :

::Nikah::
Date : 010110, 10am (rumah @ masjid) - date ni yg paling aku nak...tgk cemane k..
Theme : Baby pink.. (Bffs semua pakai merah, sama mcm family aku k!)
Baju : Tempah sendiri...designed by my aunty :)
Make up : Nani & Gee (dun wery Gee, i'm wearing tudung on that day..ngeee)
Jemputan : 200 org (both families + Bffs + Frens)
Menu : bg korang makan bihun je boleh?? wakakkaa tak laa...menu kg2 laa..mcm aku tunang hari tu.. ok? hehehe demand sgt taknak bihun kan korang! cehs! =))

::Malam Berinai & Khatam Quran::
Date : 010110, 8pm (rumah)
Theme : Lite green
Baju : tempah sendiri, designed by my aunty jugak.. :)
Make up : Nani & Gee, plz be informed aku nak jugek yg Sariyanti tu ok!! Lantak la..lalalala~
Jemputan : 100org (both families, Bffs, marhaban group or whatever laa )
Nota Kaki : Takde salin2 baju byk2...tak kuase aku nak layan, 1 baju je..baju khatam tu laa baju berinai... :)

::Sanding::
Date : 020110, 2pm (rumah laaaa...)
Theme : Putih, hijau, pink... (baju sanding aku white pearl - dah dapat dah tempatnye! )
Jemputan : 1000org saje (both families + Bffs + Frens + Ofismate, etc) cukup laa.. :)

Menu : Ni laaa yg pening, bercanggah pendapat. Ikut kami berdua, nak yg simple..bayang laaa mesti ade byk kenduri kahwin kan that day...so, korang sure makan byk rumah. Apekata rumah aku makan simple2 and santai...garden wedding kan... makan laa mcm sate, soto / bakso, sup2, kambing golek sekor dan air kelapa ke, air Janda pulang ke..hah tak tau laa tu air ape tu..ekekkekeke ok what..santai kan? best! A big No-No from mama and opah, both of them want Johorian menu (as usual, koman sangat menu2 ni, oh pls!) nasi beriyani, ayam merah bla bla bla bla... so? cemane?

Gift / wedding Favour : Yg ni simple aje, bab ni kena follow my opah's rules and regulation. Dia nak jugek telur pindang dia...so...layan~~~ and akan ade special gift utk both family members and Bffs, of cos! :)

Flower girl : I dont need them...hahaha..tapi tgk bajet nanti laaa..and kalau tak serabut :)

Khemah : Max 8 including khemah makan pengantin + pelamin...keciknyer..ekekekkeke warna scallop plak aku nak baby pink..but...Tunang saye plak kate..kalau tema garden..based utk garden ialah daun2..daun2 = hijau..so...die suh buat hijau putih..lawa ke? ni dah macam majlis si Diana Rafar & zamarul la pulek..wakakakkaka taknak2..combined idea laaa..aku pink..die ijau..so..scallop baby pink + lite green..cantik kah kawan2?? ermm...nanti aku kena tanya semua ahli nujum negara...huhuhu korang leh vote kat tepi blog ni..sila vote dgn segera yeh!

Pelamin : Actually ade few wedding planner yg aku berkenan, mcm Rinssuzana, Zaifie Zainal, Puteris, D ratu etc (ni semua yg murah laa..bukan yg grand2 mcm Arma ke, Naz great idea ke, Linda Rahim ke..yg tu...artis or anak dato' leh laaa...aku artis ke?waaaaaaaaaaaaahh!!) yg aku pilih ni sgt simple, dan harga yg berpatuan dan bersesuaian dgn aku. Pelamin bawah khemah, 20 kaki, warna putih / cream & hijau..ade sangkar burung gantung2 (dlm nak ade burung tau!), ade pagola, ade rumput lilit2..ade lilin2...waaaaaaaaaah?? cantik ke? berangan sgt! hahahaha kerusi taknak yg high back tu confirm2 sebab aku tak tinggi..t nampak cam tah pape.., nak yg biase je..tapi cantum..mcm kerusi taman..warna putih..ekekkeke comelnyer...

haih....kalau berangan ni mmg best..tapi berangan2 aku pun..semua benda ni insyaallah in place tak lama lagi..kalau tak dapat yg aku nak..yg dah nak same pun jadik leee...ekekekke sebab it is my lifetime memory..and i want it to be perfect...bukan sempurna kat mata semua org... sempurna di mata dan hati aku sudah laaaa..lagipun, yg nak ingat semua ni sampai bila2 ialah aku dan tunang aku..so...biarlah sempurna dimata both of us..

Pasni ade entry aku nak letak gambar2 yg aku dah pun g survey masa pameran pengantin that day.. :) tgk yeh! take care... tatatatata

p/s : wahai En.Azuan, assignment kamu yg dah 3bulan tertangguh bile nak submit..cepat! itu lee tugas kamu yg 1st dan yg senang aku rase, CARI TEMPAT NK G KURSUS KAWEN!! adoi laaa.. *geleng2kepala*